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Oh, I have a favor to ask...

This is gonna be a quicky because I can't think about it too much or I'll freak.

I don't know where you all are religiously... I'm nowhere, personally. I don't know what I believe. But I am going to ask you all to pray (or send good thoughts, or whatever it is that you all do) in my grandfather's direction. He was diagnosed with prostate cancer last month. They're doing a surgery tomorrow to basically freeze the prostate... hopefully it will freeze and therefor kill the cancer cells. It's not a huge surgery and he'll make it through it fine... but there's still concern in my heart. He's 75, this is the last thing he needs to deal with. And I don't know what I'm going to do if this doesn't work.

So please send your good thoughts / prayers his way. He's a wonderful man and has been my father figure for most of my life. He needs to get better and I know that good thoughts / vibes / prayers can help that along.

Randomness...

So I lived with a snake for a few years, why not try a lizard?

Okay, a bit snarky, I know... I'll take it back. :)

But I am seriously considering getting myself a Bearded Dragon... I've done the research and thought about it for quite a while... on and off for a few years now. I think it would be a really cool pet to have, something unusual... and something I've never had before. Thoughts, anyone?

Oh, by the way, I've finally gotten the Christmas cards, and I'm gonna try to get them in the mail tomorrow... so while they will be late... especially for those of you overseas... they will be on the way. :)
I am a happy Saha today. *sigh* Reading that back, I need a new nickname. lol Like Pixie or something cute like that but all my friends have those cute nicknames taken. But Saha is mine, so I shall continue to use it. :)

So why am I happy, you might ask? I have no earthly clue. I'm just happy. And having a cute guy being sweet to me... well, that's definitely a pick me up. :) And knowing that said cutie will be moving less than an hour from me? Total and complete pick me up. Having my two bff's around to brighten my day and share their baby with me... who could ask for more? Having my puppy be a little love bug to me when I start to feel down? Very very sweet. Seeing the Christmas lights on houses at night? Having a pretty blanket of snow on the ground? Gets me in the holiday spirits.

So when you put all of this together, I think the question becomes, why wouldn't I be happy?

Election Stuff.

One more thing I wanted to say today. It's not in keeping with the good post, though. The election has gotten out of hand here in the states. I was going to just keep my mouth shut but I'm about at the end of my rope. I won't lie, I do not like Bush (though I think he's been vilified more than he should be) and I will be glad when he's out of office. I'm a 100% Hillary Clinton supporter. I swear I almost cried when Obama beat her out. But I think he's the better bet than McCain. But this is all my OPINION.

Now for what is fact. It has gotten so out of hand. Palin is just running her mouth like crazy... does the woman not know the meaning of social graces? Besides that, what's with making the country FEAR Obama?! He's an American. He isn't Osama, for fuck's sake. To imply that and to throw around the words "domestic terrorist" is just ignorant. And they're banking on the fact that if they throw that around enough, the ignorant assholes that don't know how to do their homework will put those two things together and vote for the only "American" option.

*sigh* I'm disgusted with my country. And to top that off the state and local election are getting out of hand too. Mud slinging is a common thing in political campaigns, I've never liked it, but hey... fact of life. They're going above and beyond this year. It makes me sick. The slanderous bullshit they say... it's working against them. It's making me want to vote for the person they're talking shit about simply because of the complete unfairness of it all. They say things completely out of context. I don't tolerate that sort of thing in my personal life... why the hell should I be okay with the people running my country doing it?

And let's not even get into the constant commercials on TV, the phone calls at all times of day. If I get one more call while I'm trying to eat my dinner... or god forbid watch an hour and a half movie... I'm gonna hurt someone. I know what November 4th is. I know who the candidates are! You shouldn't be able to call yourself an American if you don't! Guess what? I already voted and turned it in! Within days of getting the ballots in the mail, I did it. Back the fuck off, already. I understand that a lot of people don't vote but I do. I have voted in every single election since I turned 18... like a proper American citizen. Why do I have to be annoyed for MONTHS just because some morons out there refuse to vote? *sigh*

I'll be happy when this is all over. It seems like such a small thing, and I can understand why these things are happening... but come on already. This shit's been going on for a year now. I've done my research, I know the ins and outs of the candidates and the issues. I'm done with it. I know I can't possibly be the only one feeling this way. Don't get me wrong, while I'm not passionate about politics, I respect it. I do my "duty" and don't just vote for Mickey Mouse. But I'm so over it at this point. I will cry if McCain wins... not so much because of him, he's not too bad. But Palin? Oh, my god. If she's gonna be VP, someone please put a zipper on that woman's mouth.

Just sayin'.
I'm constantly bitching, so you know what? Not today. This post is specifically about the good stuff going on in my life. Sometimes I get so involved with the bad I forget there is good. So here's the good.

I went out and bought myself and Xbox 360 a little while ago. So that makes a PS3 and the Xbox in less than a years time. Who would have thought that was possible? :) But I'm happy with it and while it will take a bit to pay off the Xbox, I'll be able to do it in a matter of months like I did with the Playstation. I also treated myself to the new Fable 2 game that came out... such a sweet game. It's actually something that I want to play and get into... I haven't had that in a game in a while.

For the past few years I've had my bedroom painted a light and dark blue. My favorite color (cobalt, anyway). It's been nice but not quite me, if that makes sense. And my room is supposed to be a place to escape from pressures and stress... it hasn't been that in a long long time. When Darin was living here it was the room where we usually fought... the only room in the house where we could have some semblance of privacy. Not to mention it was (and still is to some extent) the place that starts most of our fights as well as houses them. So the energy in the room hasn't been great. I so believe that a room can absorb the energy people bring to it... if nothing else, the room has the memory of all the fights. So I've decided to change it. I'm going with a peachy kind of color with accents of chocolate brown. Nice calm and peaceful colors.

My mother has also helped me buy a new bed and entertainment center for my room... and we might be getting a sweet bookshelf tomorrow. It's been at least 10 years since I've gotten a new bedroom set and while it won't be a set, everything will go together quite nicely, if I do say so myself. :) The only thing left to get to completely refurbish my room will be a nightstand and possibly a dresser to go in my closet. Oh, and a mattress. I upgraded to a Queen bed because if Darin is sleeping with me, there's not much room in a Full. Not to mention that when Darin's not with me, Bailey usually is... and even though she's a smallish dog (she may be 50lbs and taller than my other "large" dog, but she can smush herself into quite a small ball) she takes up quite a lot of room when she wants to. :)

So yeah, I'm really excited about that. My room is going to be gorgeous and so peaceful. I'm going to want to spend tons of time in there. Yay. :) It won't get repainted until after the new year, I think. But you better believe I'll be posting some pics as the process starts. I might actually be getting the bed frame tomorrow, but I won't have it in my room for a while. It's gonna kill me to have it but not use it. But what sense would it be to put it all up and have to move it all out to repaint (and possibly put new carpet in as well)? So it'll probably just sit there until we get it painted.

Yeah, I think that's about it... unless I got into how much I love my baby girl, Bailey. :) She's my little puppy, follows me around everywhere and does her best to do what I want her to. She's gotten over her separation anxiety too, so no more having to lock her in a kennel when we leave the house. She's gotten really good at fetching the ball and bringing it back to me. She's really grown into being my perfect little girl. :) She'll be two years old this New Year's Day... she's the best choice for a pet I could have made. She brings me so much joy, it's almost unbelievable. I don't think I say enough about her. :)
Oh, did I mention that my birthday is coming up? Typical that all this shit is coming down right near my b-day. Yet one more sucky one. Yet one more where my boyfriend can't do anything... yet one more where not only the other shoes drops, but the whole fucking shoe rack comes down on my head.

Sorry excuse for an update.

It's been a while, but I've been busy.


  • Got a kind of job. I'm shuttling my cousins around for my aunt 2 days a week. From school to their activities. No biggie. For 2 hours out of my week I get $30... and a reason to get out of the house. Extra spending money is never refused. :)



  • Since I have some extra moneys I went out and bought myself an Xbox 360. Figured what the hell, I can pay it off in a few months. So it's really nice and really opens up the games I can play. It's awesome. Only problem is the game I wanted to play the most keeps freezing on me so I'm off to the game store to see if they can fix it or something for me.



  • Went camping with mom this past weekend. Just went to LaPine... which is only about 30 minutes or so away. But it was really nice to get away and spend some quality time with Mom. We brought the dogs with us and had a grand old time. Even made smores for the first time in years. The puppies even liked them. :) Minus the chocolate, of course.



  • I'm taking a Photoshop class a couple of times a week. I needed to learn how to play with my photos that I have millions of... so I figured a class would be nice. It's nice to actually be in a classroom for the first time in so long. But the teacher is going over the absolute basics... right/left clicking and what not. *sigh* So I tend to drift off of fiddle with it on my own. But hopefully it'll pick up next class.


It's been a minute since I've updated so I figured I should.

Darin had his surgery on Monday... it went well. He came home with me and has been staying here (until tonight) while he recovers. It's easier that way and slightly more comfortable for him. And that way his parents wouldn't have to take care of him quite so much. But they've been doing a lot. Deb has totally cleaned his house and she even went out and bought the basics he needed but hasn't been able to get yet. She's been a godsend in that way. She even went out and bought me a little basket and filled it with a few cute things to thank me for all I've done for Darin. That touched me more than I can even say.

So yeah, that's about it for now. A better update to come sometime... I'm a little tired and washed out right now. My Chronic Fatigue is rearing it's ugly head again... but as soon as I get a few days to fully rest, I'll be fine.
Did I mention how much I hate the hospital here? They missed a fucking broken leg. How do they do that? They should all be fired. And this is just one more example of them fucking up.

Ex's... they're just out to get me lately.

I just added Henry's ex as a friend on MySpace.

How much weirder can life get? Seriously?

At least she's nice to me now that I'm not a threat. Now that we're both of the same mindset about Henry.